It Doesn’t Feel Like Autumn Yet…

The leaves don’t seem to be turning brown, it’s still sunny.. and I still don’t have a job. But good news… I actually feel like writing today. I’ve just avoided it for most of the summer I think because it reminds me of being at work. But that job is long gone… And so it seems is that version of me. It’s not as if I hated that job. It just wasn’t me. But that’s another story for another day.

So anyways I made a summer bucket list…

-Travel by plane alone – DONE – It rained A LOT in Turkey.

-Get a new hairstyle – DONE.. took the plaits out after a while because they were annoying.

-Pass my driving theory test – DONE (and close to taking my actual test!)

-Find a job I love doing (even if I’m not getting paid) – DONE – Still loving working at the charity shop. I haven’t found a paying job. But I’m getting close. So I’ll still say this one is a  win.

-Run that 10k for CEFNI German Shepherd Rescue – DONE – It felt so good to finish in 1:21 with basically no training. Laziness wins again!

-Buy something amazing that I don’t need – DONE – My two bunnies… and I’ve been paying for them ever since.

-Dance – DONE

I didn’t start my novel. As I said, I’ve been avoiding writing. But NaNoWriMo is coming up so maybe soon?

And lastly.. and most importantly…

-Be happy with myself by the end of summer

I’m a lot happier with myself that I was. I have my down days. But they tend to just be a down few hours, or just one day instead of a whole week.

So many people have helped me out in the last few months. So by the end of the year I plan to be not ‘back to normal’ but an even more awesome version.

Also.. I crossed one off my 30 before 30 list. Visit a fortune teller. Actually I have my tarot cards read. I never really believed in all that stuff, but this reader seemed to make sense. I may go see her at the beginning of next year to see what else she has to say.

In case I don’t feel like writing again for a  while, I’ll leave you with a picture of my bunnies to brighten up your day 🙂

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It’s August and I’m Getting There…

How are we in August already??
So much has happened this summer so far. I didn’t need a bucket list, I’ve done so many awesome things.
Seeing Prince and McBusted live were definitely the top two things to happen to me this summer – the best two gigs of my life!

My souvenirs!
Now what else?
I now have two bunnies. I got Nelly from a pet shop then decided to adopt Jerry from the RSPCA as a friend for her. They’re the cutest couple I have ever seen!

Back to the bucket list
Travel by plane alone – DONE.. met my sisters in Turkey
Get a new hairstyle – I dyed my ends ORANGE!! Like it?

-Pass my driving theory test… I booked it for the end of August so FINGERS CROSSED!!
-Find a job I love doing (even if I’m not getting paid) – I started volunteering in a charity shop aaaannd on Monday I’m going to the PDSA about volunteering at a vets 😀 Nothing on the actual job front yet though =/
-Run that 10k for CEFNI German Shepherd Rescue – Tomorrow is the day!!
-Buy something amazing that I don’t need – Well I guess I didn’t NEED the rabbits.. But I LOVE them
-Start the novel (finish a chapter?) – Not yet sorry =/
-Dance – I didn’t really know what I meant bu this one. But happy people dance right? I had a great night dancing at a cousin’s wedding. I wasn’t expecting to dance so I was wearing MONSTER HEELS..
Like most of my old nights out I ended up bare footed…
And last but not least… Be happy with myself by the end of summer… I’m getting there 🙂
I’m learning that there is so much out there… and it’s ok to not be happy all of the time.

Summer Bucket List 2014 / New Hairstyle

I usually love spring. It’s the time of year when you make plans for summer. But my spring didn’t go too well. Everything went up in the air, plans out of the window. I haven’t even looked at my 30 Before 30 list for god knows how long.

So for the moment I’m not looking too far into the future. If you read my last post you’ll know I flew to Turkey on my own a little while ago. I was pretty proud of myself so I’ve decided that it’ll be the first thing on my 2014 Summer Bucket List. Click the link to see the others.

My next one is Get a New Hairstyle – Another one I’ve already done. After a break up one of the best things you can do for yourself is get a new hair cut/style. When I was 17 I decided to cut off most of my hair when I broke up with my boyfriend.


This time I decided to be slightly less crazy and try a new hairstyle instead. I loved my hair short. But it took me ages to grow it back. So I got plaits instead. I like how they show off my dip-dye 🙂


So that’s 1 and 2. Stay tuned for the rest…

First Solo Flight / I Can Do it Alone :)

About a week and a half ago I was walking into an airport, suitcase in-hand, alone for the first time in ages. This was the first time I travelled by plane all by myself. It was one of the most peaceful experiences of my life.

Checking in went without a hitch. Then I got a Panini, mocha and a tiramisu cake. After a bit of people watching and browsing I remembered how uncomfortable airport seats are. Before I knew it, it was time to get on the plane.

A poor lady, also travelling alone, broke her bag. Then another had a nose bleed, not before her bottle of pop fizzed everywhere. She just calmly asked if anyone had a tissue and cleaned herself up. No stress.

I think that rather than getting more stressed because you’re alone, you realise that it’s just you and you can handle it alone. And strangers can be friendly.

The plane was very uneventful. I strapped myself in, watched the stewardess waving and signalling while saying something about exits… and I was asleep.

The couple next to me were friendly, not too chatty and not all love-dovey. Perfect.

I didn’t even care that it was raining when I finally got my first smell of Turkish air. I love that it smells different when you get into the fresh air of another place.

I found my transfer easily and didn’t even mind sitting in the van alone until the other passengers got there. I even learnt how to say thank you in Turkish from the driver when I swapped a 20 pound note for his handful of coins. Don’t ask me to spell it.

The first stress I felt was worrying that my sisters were waiting for me at my hotel and we were late. But if I was alone it wouldn’t have mattered.

So there you go.

This may not seem like a massive deal to some people. But it was to me because a few weeks ago I didn’t feel like I could do anything. I’ve always been a very independent person. But anxiety is a killer – more than I ever realised.

So I went from panic attack on my way to work to getting on a plane on my own. Well done me. 🙂

P.S Turkish food is awesome!

Afraid of Heights? Go Jump Off a Bridge!

When I was younger, I got stuck at the top of a rock-climbing wall. In fact, I may not have actually been at the top, but it was high. At around the same age, I abseiled down a bridge. By abseiling I mean held onto the rope, closed my eyes and listened to a girl, who was attached to me, scream. The latter was a pretty traumatic experience.

People usually say that they were scared at the time, but once it’s over they want to do it all over again. I say NOPE..

So yeh.. I’m scared of heights. This means rollercoasters, ferris wheels… sky diving, etc, etc are out of the question. To be honest, dropping from the sky or being spun upside down on some creaky old fairground ride are not on my to-do list. But climbing something high is.

I’ve never understood the whole ‘being scared for fun thing’. I also hate horror movies. I’m painting the picture of a complete scaredy cat here I know…

I’m not that adorable..

Anyway, one day I may have to climb out  the window of a burning building, or hide up a tree from bear. So it’s time to cross heights off my list of fears. That’ll just leave fireworks, pain, the dark.. death..

I decided something controlled would be best (no throwing myself off a bridge is not a real option).

So here are my top three ideas:

Rock Climbing (again)

So I had a bad experience with rock climbing. It doesn’t mean I should never try it again. I was fine (sort of) while I was climbing. It was when I tried to get down that I panicked.

I’m not a child anymore. I can climb a rock.

I know of a few indoor rock climbing places in my area. But to do this properly I’d have to be outside, maybe on a real rock wall? I’m not sure if it matters if the wall is real or not. But as a fake one is made for the sole purpose of climbing (with those bright colours sticky-out bits), I guess it would be easier.

Inside or out?… I guess the indoor walls are pretty high too..

Tree Climbing

As I’ve already tried rock climbing, something similar may be a better idea. I’m not sure if it’s more or less safe, but there are ropes and helmets involved so it can’t be too dangerous.

Goodleaf Tree Climbing, located in Appley Park, Ryde Isle of Wight, is the first company that came up when I Googled ‘tree climbing’. I didn’t realise there were places to go to do this professionally, and more importantly, safely.

Although, I’m not feeling too safe at the thought of hanging upside down on a rope, helmet or no helmet.

I’ve never been to the Isle of Wight, so this could be a good reason to go. But there must be a few tree climbing places around the UK. It’s not as if we’re running low on trees.

So I think a bit more research is needed before I consider this one. I need to find out exactly how tall these trees are that we’re supposed to be climbing.

A Tree Top Adventure

I heard about Go Ape a while ago. But I saw heights and thought, “Ahhh no!”

This looks like it would be one of the more fun  activities. It’s basically an assault course in the trees.  I know it’s not exactly climbing something high, but I guess there would be some climbing involved.

There are loads of these places all around the country, and that’s just the Go Ape ones. TTAdventure looks good too (no favouritism until I’ve actually been to one). There’s just something nice about hanging out in a forest. I could take a picnic.

Looking at the pictures, it doesn’t seem to be as high as actually climbing rocks or trees though. Maybe that’s why it seems so appealing. But maybe that’s just cheating..

So these are my three options.. unless you have any other suggestions.

2014: The Year of Colour

Yesterday, I found two things that are going to make my year awesome and colourful. As you may (or may not) know, two of the things on my 30 Before 30 list are: ‘go to a festival’ and ‘run a race every year.’

HOLI Festival of Colours

First of all, we have the HOLI Festival of Colours. The HOLI Festival originated in India. It’s a Hindu festival that takes place on the day of the full moon of the Phaluga month (the twelfth lunar month in Hindu calendar). Basically, it’s about celebrating the victory of good over bad and the beginning of spring.

Now the HOLI Festival of Colours is worldwide. I don’t know how I never heard about it before. It’s happening at different locations around the UK, but tickets haven’t gone on sale yet. Actually, there hasn’t really been much information released on it at all. The only confirmed location at the moment is London.

But it’s got me pretty excited. Every hour, on the hour you get to have a big colour powder fight… just like in this Regina Spektor video. What more could you want from a festival?

The Color Run

Now for the more athletic of you we have pretty much the same thing, but as a race! The Color Run, also happening all around the UK, is a 5k of colourful fun! At the moment there are confirmed race in London, Manchester, Sunderland, Birmingham, Belfast and Brighton.

You start off all clean in white, and end the race covered in colour. It’s only 5k so you don’t need to be mega-fit or anything. I can’t remember the last time I went running so I guess I should go get some new trainers!

Registration opens on 31st January. The first race will be on Sunday June 1st at Wembley City in London!

If you are planning to go, you might want to buy this LivingSocial deal. As well as your registration in London, Birmingham, Sunderland or Brighton, you also get an official The Color Run race pack that includes a t-shirt, head band and colour packs. I think this deal closes before the race registrations open so you’ll have to be quick.

Oh, and if you’re in the US, you can find information on the Color Run’s in your area here.

How’s January Looking?

We’re on the 10th day of the year, and it’s been pretty uneventful so far. I haven’t even posted this week… I’m going to blame it on being the first week back at work. But it’s mainly because I’m feeling pretty scattered with this blog at the moment. I need to try to stick to some sort of weekly timetable.

I haven’t even done a daily prompt this week because I wanted to do a short story instead of writing one of my little rhymes. They amuse me and stop the boredom when it’s quiet at work. But I have a voice in my head saying, “How’s that novel coming along? Oh yeh, that’s right. You haven’t even started it yet!”

I have so many unfinished short stories and ideas. I even have the whole storyline for a novel in post-it notes that I gave up on during NaNoWriMo. I think it’s time for a writing course/class/retreat…

But I am making some progress with my 30 before 30 list… not that I’ve actually crossed anything off yet.

a. I’ve almost finished my TEFL course. The deadline is Jan 28th. But I think I should be able to finish it in the next week or so.

b. My driving is coming along nicely. I still don’t like driving. But after a two-week break I had a really good lesson with no stalling.

c. I only have two Mr Men books to go to complete the collection. In fact, I only put this on the list because I bought a second-hand set with two missing and I can’t deal with an unfinished book collection. I just don’t want this to be the first thing I cross off.

d. I need to get started on Terry Pratchett’s Discworld novels. There are 84 so I need to read one a month. I really should’ve thought this through.

e. Finally, I plan on visiting a fortune-teller before the end of the month. Hopefully they can tell me the joys of my future.

So to answer my question… it’s looking pretty productive, but not too exciting. I’m not feeling too glum at the moment – no January Blues for me. Although it feels like it’s gotten colder since Christmas. It’s too late for snow so I hope it doesn’t bother…

Also, I’m not sure about this theme… but I needed to get rid of the xmassy one so it’ll have to do for now..